I don’t really know what it means to be in love, and as they say, write what you know. Since I am to write about love, I will focus on something I love to have and am very well acquainted with: Crushes.
These are pictures of the three-ring binder I had in 7th grade. I saw “Speed” in the summer of 1994 just after graduating from elementary school, and became absolutely smitten with Keanu Reeves. I spent that summer daydreaming about how I was going to marry Keanu when I was 24 (only after I had retired from modeling, of course). Did you know that Keanu was born in Beirut, Lebanon and that the name means “cool breeze over the mountain” in Hawaiian (thanks for the education, Bop Magazine!)? Anyway, I thought about the trips my future husband and I would take, made sketches of the types of dresses I planned to don at future red carpet events, and imagined how great it would someday be to hobnob with celebrities like Sandra Bullock, Jeff Daniels and Dennis Hopper (12 year-old me imagined the cast of “Speed” to be the best of friends, I would later become aware of things like press junkets).
This intense “love” lasted a grand total of 6 months, until a viewing of “Newsies” ushered in a new era where Christian Bale reigned supreme over my 13 year-old heart. Well, along with Ethan Hawke, Brad Pitt, Brad Renfo (RIP) and Jared Leto, who were also, like, really, really cute and stuff.
1996 (age 14) was the year I had my first boyfriend, kiss, drink, joint etc. and things like celebrity crushes temporarily fell by the wayside. I watched “Dazed and Confused” all the time, read Siddhartha, and made my dad stand in line to get me tickets to see the Sex Pistols during their Filthy Lucre reunion tour, cus I was, like, into punk rock and stuff, but like, had to rehearse for my 8th grade graduation, right, and I was, like, afraid it would sell out if I went after school. It was all very Lindsay Weir in “Freaks and Geeks,” I even started wearing an army jacket and had the same haircut!
Ah, speaking of “Freaks and Geeks,” my current celebrity crush is James Franco. Actually… strike the first statement of this blog post from the record – I added “Eat Pray Love” to my Netflix queue. That’s LOVE.